KK!!!! =)

I'm so HAPPY..

Daddy let me come back by plane because I'm alone :p

SEE this!!

I was like so SAKAI..

So, there's no more human who stands in the middle and show you what to do?

everything's is in this SMALL SCREEN :D

Not only this..

It even shows interesting places all over the country

But,

unfortunately I don't even feel like watching it because it's like soooo BORING =.=

Ignore my maybe SWOLLEN eyes..

I know they looked UGLY =.=

And this actually looks like a 300 years old PHOTO =.=

See the guy in RED?

He's a MONK..

And he's my daddy's step brother..

Which means he's my step uncle? :D

and i knew this only TODAY =.=

This is so NOT GOOD..

because I need to carry a HEAVY baggage and WALK a LONG WAY to the plane =.=

and it's like so TIRING..

They cannot just park the plane NEARER meh!! haiyo =.=

Next up,

Brother's Birthday!!!!! :)

Happy birthday to my beloved brother!! CODY O O!!! :)

*loves*

I'm NOT happy...

My last day in LABUAN...

Went out with MOMMY..

ate SATAYS and drank COCONUT water..

I've got a new DOG..

but,

I've lost my CAT.

everything changed since the puppy joined us..

since Prince (the cat) saw Yuki (the dog)

Prince changed,

he became soooo fierce to everyone at home..

and he hurted my lil bros and sisters and also me because he's too angry when he saw Yuki.. :(

Mommy was so angry with Prince and finally

mommy gave Prince to someone else ..

Prince ran all over the house when he knew mommy's gonna give him away...

I chased him all over the house too of course..

I've just only got him..

Then mommy come and pull him away from me..

I was so freaking SAD!

I cried out that moment..

I'll never have a chance to see him again..

I was having bad mood the whole day I don't even feel like eating!

Hope his new owner will treat him like how we treat him..

From now on,

There's no Prince to sleep with me anymore every night..

I MISS him so much

Bye, PRINCE.. :'(

Worries.. :'(

Back in LABUAN..

I'm suppose to be happy

and of course.. I "was"

I had BREAKFAST, LUNCH and TEA BREAK with MOMMY..

I had DINNER with DADDY..

A HEAVY but still AMAZING breakfast at home =)

I've spent most of my time with my MOMMY..

shopping with mommy was the BEST..

went for tea with mommy almost everyday here..

went to an AWESOME wedding dinner also with mommy

dinner night =)

EVERYTHING was FINE..

till TODAY..

i knew something that i was always afraid to know..

i was NOT SURPRISED.

but I'm seriously SAD!

Two of my FRIENDS who i really really CARE

are having health problems..

I can't help..

The only thing I can do is PRAY for them..

HOPE they'll be FINE..

but now the worst thing is..

ONE of this two..

I think it's MY FAULT..

like how can someone who's suppose to be healthy get diabetes huh?

and that's why I think it's ME!

few months ago..

I started bringing SWEETS and CHOCOLATES to school like EVERYDAY

and he ate like most of it =.=

okay i'm not sure about this but..

this is still relevant right?

I'm feeling EXTREME GUILT in me right now..

CRIED since the moment I knew this..

It's not really that SERIOUS la..

But I'm just SAD okay!

Don't judge me!

They're my FRIENDS and

I'm really really WORRIED..

Hope TWO of them will be alright..

anyone who've READ this..

PRAY for them too okay?

THANKS much much people =)

* You don't need to know who they are.. and you don't need to guess who they are..

It's enough for you to just pray.. without knowing who they are..

thanks.

San.Miguel!!! :)

Went for a BORING movie..
THE OTHER GUYS..
The poster looks nice with the rock on it..
and The Rock only appeared on screen for like ten or twenty minutes and DIED..
like WHAT THE HELL is this laaaa..
wasting rm9 watching noobs on screen
DUH!but anyway.. don't be influenced by what i've said..
maybe you'll think it's nice.so go WATCH IT :)
After movie..I went back home... (egg's house)
and egg bought 7 bottles of SAN MIGUEL LIGHT!!!
I was UNHAPPY and then ..
And SOOOOooo,
I grabbed one bottle and DRINK it!! :)

Weeeee~!!!

DADDY & MUMMY :)

Crying again..
BUT. for a different reason..
finally realised my stupidity for crying everyday for useless stuff..
now think back.. it's really so UNIMPORTANT if compared to my daddy and mummy
From NOW on! i won't cry for those senseless and silly stuff! it's just a waste of time.

until today..
i realised how much my FAMILY means to me..
how much i LOVE them.. and how much i MISS them..

sms-ed with daddy for a whole day..
daddy's having some problem..
i don't know what is it.. but daddy's worried..
he's worried that this problem might affect us..
daddy texted me everyday to ask me "Dear are you okay? Daddy's worried.. Don't talk to strangers okay.. Some annoying people is trying to disturb you girls. So please take care and don't let any strangers get near you girls.. "
like WHAT'S GOING ON?
Daddy never act like this before..
i've never seen him for months..
and i really hope daddy's gonna be alright..
whatever it is.. i just wish that it will be over very soon


You know..
i realised how bad am i to be a daughter like this..
1.i DON't even HAVE a PICTURE of my daddy and mummy!
2.i DON'T really MISS them before today..
3.i don't really call them but only wait for them to call..
4.the only thing i care is WHAT i WANT and WHAT i NEED..
i only contact them when i need something..
(especially when i'm lack of MONEY and when i feel like going shopping)
like what the hell am i doing?
how can i be such a psycho when daddy actually cares about me so much?
5. he DOESN'T even COMPLAIN or SCOLD me a single word
despite the money that i've spent is SO MUCH MORE than what he could afford to give..
6.When we go out for dinner..
I always order like more than two sets of food because i always think that the food sux
and daddy will always say "If not nice then don't eat la let's order something else"
7.i buy more than TWO HANDPHONES within a year
then the only thing daddy will say is "Up to you la.. Later daddy ask Uncle Liaw (the phone seller) how much is the price"
8. i buy almost THREE SHOES within a MONTH
and they are all CROCS with the price of more than rm100 each..
9. I moved from kk to labuan and labuan to kk again the next year without thinking how much daddy need to afford..
10. I always lie that i need money for SCHOOL'S STUFF when i actually spent them all for shopping..
11. I've never spend one whole day with my family cause i'm too busy hanging out with friends.
12. I never give birthday presents to daddy and mummy but only ask for mine when it's my birthday
13. I shout at them if i don't get what i want.
14. I only ORDER but i NEVER RESPECT them.
15. I do WHATEVER i want WITHOUT PERMISSIONS.
16. I always say "YOU NEVER CARE!" without caring how much these words hurt them

Only NOW that i REALISED
the only thing that i know is to ask for something when i never do anything for them!
If you're the same like me.
PLEASE CHANGE..
cause you'll realised one day how WRONG and how PATHETIC you are just like what am i feeling now!!
You're BORNed not only to let them LOVE YOU but you need to LOVE THEM too!
DON'T take things FOR GRANTED!!
DON'T remember their existence only when you NEED THEM!

and so,
I'm CHANGING MY ATTITUDE and i'll LOVE THEM MORE than anything and anyone else.
cause they LOVE ME more than i can imagine.


Going back home after two weeks..
I'm gonna spend as much as i can with my family
I have a "forever not gonna come true" wish..
That is to EAT DINNER TOGETHER with both daddy and mummy
It's never possible since 14 years ago daddy and mummy divorced.
forget it..
I'm still happy to see them..
Daddy & Mummy,
I LOVE YOU! :)

The HIM... :(

All in a sudden, memories came back..
NBA, camp, movies, fighting in class, competing for homeworks and results, singing the same songs and all the crap talkings..
maybe it's about busy-ness
or maybe other reasons
i honestly don't understand..
why things could change 360 degrees in just one day?
i lost everything.
memories or whatever.. just something really important for me..
lost the similarities, lost the understanding between each other..
i start to feel that my existence is already NOTHING.. and i'm NOT important at all..
i miss the old him.. the happy him.. the everyday singing (although it sounds bad) him.. the crazy him.. and the busybody him...
at least he's not sad.. not emo like now..
WHEN would that him come back? never?
the only thing i can say is... i really hope the old him would be back one day...Where is my old happy BEST FRIEND + BUDDY? i MISS that HIM!
:(

EXAM week!!! :(

Trial EXAM! :(
sleepless nights again..
stressful + tired..

Speechless...

Things are getting like more and more complicated.
First, two of them don't talk...
Then the previous one came back..
Then now,
I'm like the intermediate element in this matter..
and i don't even understand why am i doing this...
The starring is maaa best friend... then the other two are also my best buddies ever..
DUH!
I just want things to be simple laaa. The only thing i wished for is to see all of them smiling happily everyday..
BUT now what?
I cried like EVERY single night because i see him sad like EVERYDAY!
know how it feels ma?
I'm just sitting behind laaa.. It's really torturing you know..
When you see someone that you care being moody and sad the whole day long and doesn't even speak a single word..
Plus i need to see him act happy some more in front of his brothers...
NOT torturing meh like that!
Why don't just let things go on normally eh?
Why can't everyone of us be friends together.. Talk and laugh whole day long?
CANNOT MEH!!!
You all tired or not o?
i ADMIT i'm really tired having this intermediate junk job!

but i'm still willing to do it.. cause i really wanna see you guys happy!
not like NOW!

Come on laaa. It's our last year together..
I don't wanna cry for nothing every night like now...
I know cry helps nothing but i just can't stand seeing people that i care suffer like this..
Cannot just forget about relationships or whatever junk is it and just be HAPPY?
WAKE UP guys..