The HIM... :(

All in a sudden, memories came back..
NBA, camp, movies, fighting in class, competing for homeworks and results, singing the same songs and all the crap talkings..
maybe it's about busy-ness
or maybe other reasons
i honestly don't understand..
why things could change 360 degrees in just one day?
i lost everything.
memories or whatever.. just something really important for me..
lost the similarities, lost the understanding between each other..
i start to feel that my existence is already NOTHING.. and i'm NOT important at all..
i miss the old him.. the happy him.. the everyday singing (although it sounds bad) him.. the crazy him.. and the busybody him...
at least he's not sad.. not emo like now..
WHEN would that him come back? never?
the only thing i can say is... i really hope the old him would be back one day...Where is my old happy BEST FRIEND + BUDDY? i MISS that HIM!
:(