Crying again..
BUT. for a different reason..
finally realised my stupidity for crying everyday for useless stuff..
now think back.. it's really so UNIMPORTANT if compared to my daddy and mummy
From NOW on! i won't cry for those senseless and silly stuff! it's just a waste of time.
until today..
i realised how much my FAMILY means to me..
how much i LOVE them.. and how much i MISS them..
sms-ed with daddy for a whole day..
daddy's having some problem..
i don't know what is it.. but daddy's worried..
he's worried that this problem might affect us..
daddy texted me everyday to ask me "Dear are you okay? Daddy's worried.. Don't talk to strangers okay.. Some annoying people is trying to disturb you girls. So please take care and don't let any strangers get near you girls.. "
like WHAT'S GOING ON?
Daddy never act like this before..
i've never seen him for months..
and i really hope daddy's gonna be alright..
whatever it is.. i just wish that it will be over very soon
You know..
i realised how bad am i to be a daughter like this..
1.i DON't even HAVE a PICTURE of my daddy and mummy!
2.i DON'T really MISS them before today..
3.i don't really call them but only wait for them to call..
4.the only thing i care is WHAT i WANT and WHAT i NEED..
i only contact them when i need something..
(especially when i'm lack of MONEY and when i feel like going shopping)
like what the hell am i doing?
how can i be such a psycho when daddy actually cares about me so much?
5. he DOESN'T even COMPLAIN or SCOLD me a single word
despite the money that i've spent is SO MUCH MORE than what he could afford to give..
6.When we go out for dinner..
I always order like more than two sets of food because i always think that the food sux
and daddy will always say "If not nice then don't eat la let's order something else"
7.i buy more than TWO HANDPHONES within a year
then the only thing daddy will say is "Up to you la.. Later daddy ask Uncle Liaw (the phone seller) how much is the price"
8. i buy almost THREE SHOES within a MONTH
and they are all CROCS with the price of more than rm100 each..
9. I moved from kk to labuan and labuan to kk again the next year without thinking how much daddy need to afford..
10. I always lie that i need money for SCHOOL'S STUFF when i actually spent them all for shopping..
11. I've never spend one whole day with my family cause i'm too busy hanging out with friends.
12. I never give birthday presents to daddy and mummy but only ask for mine when it's my birthday
13. I shout at them if i don't get what i want.
14. I only ORDER but i NEVER RESPECT them.
15. I do WHATEVER i want WITHOUT PERMISSIONS.
16. I always say "YOU NEVER CARE!" without caring how much these words hurt them
Only NOW that i REALISED
the only thing that i know is to ask for something when i never do anything for them!
If you're the same like me.
PLEASE CHANGE..
cause you'll realised one day how WRONG and how PATHETIC you are just like what am i feeling now!!
You're BORNed not only to let them LOVE YOU but you need to LOVE THEM too!
DON'T take things FOR GRANTED!!
DON'T remember their existence only when you NEED THEM!
and so,
I'm CHANGING MY ATTITUDE and i'll LOVE THEM MORE than anything and anyone else.
cause they LOVE ME more than i can imagine.
Going back home after two weeks..
I'm gonna spend as much as i can with my family
I have a "forever not gonna come true" wish..
That is to EAT DINNER TOGETHER with both daddy and mummy
It's never possible since 14 years ago daddy and mummy divorced.
forget it..
I'm still happy to see them..
Daddy & Mummy,
I LOVE YOU! :)
BUT. for a different reason..
finally realised my stupidity for crying everyday for useless stuff..
now think back.. it's really so UNIMPORTANT if compared to my daddy and mummy
From NOW on! i won't cry for those senseless and silly stuff! it's just a waste of time.
until today..
i realised how much my FAMILY means to me..
how much i LOVE them.. and how much i MISS them..
sms-ed with daddy for a whole day..
daddy's having some problem..
i don't know what is it.. but daddy's worried..
he's worried that this problem might affect us..
daddy texted me everyday to ask me "Dear are you okay? Daddy's worried.. Don't talk to strangers okay.. Some annoying people is trying to disturb you girls. So please take care and don't let any strangers get near you girls.. "
like WHAT'S GOING ON?
Daddy never act like this before..
i've never seen him for months..
and i really hope daddy's gonna be alright..
whatever it is.. i just wish that it will be over very soon
You know..
i realised how bad am i to be a daughter like this..
1.i DON't even HAVE a PICTURE of my daddy and mummy!
2.i DON'T really MISS them before today..
3.i don't really call them but only wait for them to call..
4.the only thing i care is WHAT i WANT and WHAT i NEED..
i only contact them when i need something..
(especially when i'm lack of MONEY and when i feel like going shopping)
like what the hell am i doing?
how can i be such a psycho when daddy actually cares about me so much?
5. he DOESN'T even COMPLAIN or SCOLD me a single word
despite the money that i've spent is SO MUCH MORE than what he could afford to give..
6.When we go out for dinner..
I always order like more than two sets of food because i always think that the food sux
and daddy will always say "If not nice then don't eat la let's order something else"
7.i buy more than TWO HANDPHONES within a year
then the only thing daddy will say is "Up to you la.. Later daddy ask Uncle Liaw (the phone seller) how much is the price"
8. i buy almost THREE SHOES within a MONTH
and they are all CROCS with the price of more than rm100 each..
9. I moved from kk to labuan and labuan to kk again the next year without thinking how much daddy need to afford..
10. I always lie that i need money for SCHOOL'S STUFF when i actually spent them all for shopping..
11. I've never spend one whole day with my family cause i'm too busy hanging out with friends.
12. I never give birthday presents to daddy and mummy but only ask for mine when it's my birthday
13. I shout at them if i don't get what i want.
14. I only ORDER but i NEVER RESPECT them.
15. I do WHATEVER i want WITHOUT PERMISSIONS.
16. I always say "YOU NEVER CARE!" without caring how much these words hurt them
Only NOW that i REALISED
the only thing that i know is to ask for something when i never do anything for them!
If you're the same like me.
PLEASE CHANGE..
cause you'll realised one day how WRONG and how PATHETIC you are just like what am i feeling now!!
You're BORNed not only to let them LOVE YOU but you need to LOVE THEM too!
DON'T take things FOR GRANTED!!
DON'T remember their existence only when you NEED THEM!
and so,
I'm CHANGING MY ATTITUDE and i'll LOVE THEM MORE than anything and anyone else.
cause they LOVE ME more than i can imagine.
Going back home after two weeks..
I'm gonna spend as much as i can with my family
I have a "forever not gonna come true" wish..
That is to EAT DINNER TOGETHER with both daddy and mummy
It's never possible since 14 years ago daddy and mummy divorced.
forget it..
I'm still happy to see them..
Daddy & Mummy,
I LOVE YOU! :)
I had read you blog. Thanks for sharing with me. It is nice =)
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